the beginning

2010 has already ended...

year of sorrow

year of sweet memories

*but still not enough to make me have diabetes laa*

hahaha,

but yes,

2010 has taught me a lot about life,

how life can seem sooo dark and lonely and yet sooo beautiful and picturesque

recap of the year??

SEKOLAH TUN FATIMAH

life in stf was just the same as other years

except,

being a senior taught me to be considerate

to learn to be more patient in more ways than one.

getting a hell lot of trouble for the first time ever in my life

in other words, breaking my leg, 

reminded me that everything in life has its drawbacks.

qada' and qadar

i can never run away 4rm that

and yes...

it really hurt and still hurts whenever i think about all that i have lost during that time

but then, all things happen for a reason

don't they?

we entered competitions, 

we won some, we lost some.

thinking bout it just makes me want to cry.

not being there hurts....

studies were just fine

no honeymoon year 4 me.

i really want to kill that person who came up with the term HONEYMOON YEAR

there never was and never will i guess

i got myself back into 5S next year, 

hope i can cope up with all the pressure laa...

there were fights and misunderstandings

but all is well by the end of 2010

thank god!

i hate fighting, but somehow, 

i always get myself caught up in 1...

i just hope for the best for 2011

SPM year this year.

my future lays right before me

and i have to strive for the best.

everyone i come to know of is putting high hopes on me.

10A+ is a must for me

Alisa Balqis bt Mohd Khalil Alkhushairi

you can do it!!

come on... get yourself together please...

you need to.

to take medic,

you have to be the creame de la creame~

just relax and give it all the best.

no more playing about. 

no more inteenet please.

phone?

lessen the use...

its gonna hurt, but, 

it is obviously a giant distraction.

you know that...

FAMILY

its been really hard for me

accepting

making decisions

but i hope all will end well this 2011

no more crying please

i've been hurt, suffered and tortured for long enough

4years is a really long time

i can't turn back time

and i can't rewrite what has already happened

nevertheless i will try

try my best to get through it all

only a bit longer before i can finally leave and let live

i know i should not run away

but

i just have to.

somethings are just unbearable.

FRIENDS

i thought i could let go of my past

forget and be forgotten by all who knew me once before

but alas,

all that has failed and i am once again in the circle of my fellow others

i thought that by going to STF

not only to pursue my dream and future

but to run from the people who i care and love the most

in hope of forgetting all that we have been through

considering the fact that my happiness has already been torn apart from thyself

i could just disappear and form a new life somehow

but

that was never to come true

i can never let you guys go

i can never forget you 

thank you soooo much for being there for me

even if it has been centuries since we last met 

dynasties since we last talked

but that is just what true friends are for

they are there when you need them 

when everyone else has left 

thank you for all the kindness and i really hope that our friendship will never sink

MUHAMAD HASRI SYAFIQI YUSRI

i know its supposed to be LOVE right?

but my LOVE= MUHAMAD HASRI SYAFIQI YUSRI

sooooo, when you substitute it, 

its just the same.

hahaha,

*semangat add maths actlly*

but, 

thanks 4 coming into my life

even if it all started out all silly and unexpected

even so, i'm grateful

in more ways than one

you are just incredible tau x?

but, that is for me to know and me myself alone.

org laen xyh nk menyibuk~

i love you and i hope you feel the same way too.

i hope you can wait for me

because i've been waiting for you my entire life

all this while, just waiting for you to enter my heart

but,

just remember this.

i never want to force you 

i don't want to make you feel suffocated

if there is anything... just tell me keyh?

even if there is anyone else.

i'll try to understand

i'd be lying if i said i'm not gonna get jealous

i am. sgt3...

but, i know that i can never push things too hard

or too fast

lets just take our own sweet time keyh?

i hope this will work out, 

i really want it to end up forever

but, 

we can only plan right? 

you have turned my life around

you have turned into my life

and i won't want it any other way

i'm off to school tomorrow,
please don't miss me too much,
there is a lot more for you to do than think about me
keyh?
i'm gonna miss you for sure
but, its my turn to fight now
i love you
but you can be a distraction to me yayang
i'm sorry. i never mean to hurt you in any way at all
but, its my time for now.

now that 2010 is over, i'm hoping all the best for 2011

SPMyear

final year

year to change for the better

year that will effect who i would be in the future

a new year

a new resolution

a new life