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day by day, 

i feel that i am getting further and further away.

yes, that IS what i wanted to happen in the first place, 

and yet, now i'm not entirely sure whether i want that to happen anymore.  

losing a part of my heart really did hurt,

and yet no i feel no pain at all. 

is that a good thing? 

i don't know....

another question of the day is also this

PLKN?

i want to. but at the same time, i don't.

hmmmm,

what would happen if i DID get it?

i really did want to go to PLKN once upon a time

but now, i'm just not sure...

i'm not sure of what to choose. 

we should always follow our heart, 

but also consult our brain in all the choices that we choose.

not to forget ALLAH SWT.

all things that happen is in HIS hands.

a person's heart is always in the hands of the beholder.

a person's heart, life, and soul.

SPM trials are also coming up, 

and yet, i feel that something is missing, 

something that is stopping me from studying and giving it my best.

but i don't know what..

it is getting quite frustrating actually. 

killing me slowly from within..

i really need to just sit down and cry 2 someone

but, i don't know who...

i can't talk to GBGL, 

it hurts too much, 

i love to see the people i love happy, 

and yet, 

i can't bring myself to be happy enough in front of them.

does that make me a hypocrite?

i just don't know.. 

once again. 

I'M LOST.